Enjoy the 4th!

Have a great weekend! Enjoy time with family and friends and please be safe! No injuries!

I hope everyone is able to relax and have a good time! Lets hope for clear skies an no rain on July 4th! Have a great weekend!

I will be off the Grid for the weekend. Hoping to spend some quality time with my daughter and boyfriend and hopefully
enjoy some time with my father. I'll be back on here Monday morning!

Fourth Of July Weekend

This next weekend is going to be so much fun and I can't wait!

I have a hotel for a couple nights down by Branson. This is our first family trip and I am so excited to get to go for once in my life I have a vacation! We are going to drive down Early Friday morning and get to the hotel and get settled then in the afternoon we are taking our lunches to moonshine beach to go swimming with Millie and Josh. I can't wait to get a tan! Okay honestly probably gonna get a burn first but then I shall tan! It will be the first of the year for me to get a tan!

So on the fourth we are heading to my dads family and shooting off fire works with everyone. I have decided to try to rekindle my relationship with my dad because  no matter how stupid he can be sometimes he is my only dad and I will never get this time back. So instead of stressing we got a hotel so that I don't get overwhelmed and I will have my own place to sleep. I think this will really help us.

I haven't been down to see my dad in over nine months so I think this trip may be kinda emotional for me. I know it will be emotional for my dad as well. I am excited to see my family and to put the past behind us. It is just that it is the past and nothing more. I know they probably haven't changed a lot but I just need to keep a level head and remember that I am stronger now and no one can hurt me like they used to.

This trip has a lot of meaning for me. It is the first trip Josh and I are taking together and it is my first family trip. I really never thought I'd get to experience such a thing because as a single mom it is so hard for me to trust guys. I have found one I feel I can trust to actually be my family.

I think it is so funny how Josh and I are. Like the other night we sat down and talked about what irritated us about the other person. I really don't think I've ever had that conversation with a guy before but it was a really great conversation even though I wasn't sure it would go so well. Honestly I got a lot out on the table and I think Josh did to but we ended up in a great mood snuggling and laughing and talking about our future.

That's the thing with Josh and I. We can talk about extremely deep things and things that may hurt the other ones feelings but in the end we make sure we don't ever end the night upset. I love that I can tell Josh whatever is on my mind. I know it bugs him how I wait to say something but its the way that I have learned to make sure I don't hurt anyone's feelings. Its how I figure out what I want to say without sounding like an idiot or being unsure of something. I am glad I found someone who is as much of a dork as I am ;-)

What are your plans for the fourth!?!?

Whatever they are be safe and don't get hurt!

Terrible Two's? Shes Not Even Two!

So I think at 18 months we have officially made it to some of the more interesting dramatic times of my life. My little ginger has hit all the points when it comes to dramatics and often reminds me of my sister when she was younger.

1. Millie is extremely dramatic about her food.
         I mean this child acts as if I starve her. I swear I never have! This child eats all the time and I have even tried to do like a routine for food  but if I eat in front of her it is like world world three. She does not like that she can't eat what I eat! Honestly it is so not even fair!


2. Tantrums-
         Oh the tantrums... lets be honest they are over the top and unneeded by far. I can't help but giggle a bit because her tantrums are the funnest thing ever. She throws her self back and gets those big crocodile tears going. Sometimes she even will run over to me like shes begging me to give in. Yea sometimes it works I mean have you seen my child's face? Its supper hard to say no too especially when she sticks that bottom lip out and sighs like the entire world just imploded before her.

         Yesterday was probably the best one. She had been throwing fits about anything and everything and my boyfriend told her to go to her room and calm down. She did go to her room and laid herself over the toy box and cried into it like it she had just been beat or something.


3. The word "MINE"
         Everything in my house supposedly belongs to her. I think Josh and I here the word "Mine" about a million times a day and I am only exaggerating a bit too. seriously though I can't help but wish that this Mine stage is over soon. Because that dang pizza was not hers its MINE. Hmm I wonder who she gets it from haha!


4.Getting out of bed
- So I have recently moved my daughter to a toddler like bed and I am not sure why I thought this would be easy. I mean considering the stories I have heard Millie is doing great. One of the most annoying things she does is get out of bed when I put her to bed for the night. There has been a couple of nights where she gets out more than once. I mean shes playing in pitch black darkness there really can't be to much fun with that. I think we may have actually figure out how to keep her in bed but just because it has worked for the moment doesn't mean it will tomorrow.

5. Telling me No
       Oh goodness I know shes only 18 months but she is so much smarter than we really think. Millie knows how to do a lot for her age which I think is great but if she is busy playing and you ask her to get up and do something for her it becomes the end of the dang world. She has got really good at saying No. Which honestly is one of the hardest feats to overcome right now because she says it about everything. I feel like she may not know the word yes so I have been attempting to teach her that one.


No we have not made it to the Terrible twos but we sure have made it to some very dramatic new heights not to far away from number two! If you have any good ways of handling some of the things I have posted above let me know! I'd love to hear from my readers.

Healthier Lifestyle

Trying something new. I can't say it will totally work out for me but here are some things I have noticed about myself in the last several months.

1. I totally binge eat
I seriously thought that I would never truly say that. When someone says binge eater all I can think is a 500 pound person eating three hamburgers and hot dogs chips and a big glass a milk along with much much more food all in one setting.

I never thought it was me that did this. I mean maybe not in that big amounts of food but I am not far from it. I found I binge eat when I get home from work because generally I deprive myself of nutritious foods with a quick granola bar and a quick lunch. I find myself not so much starving by 5:00 o'clock but more I get bored. Yes I am a bored eater and honestly every time a grab something out of the kitchen full of sugary goodness all I can think is well I am doing something aren't I?


I am very sad to say that I have reached my highest weight yet and I know if I don't change something it won't be the first time I mention my highest weight. I really need to lose some weight. I want to feel healthier and stronger. How I am starting.

1. Working out Tuesday and Thursdays
      -I sit at a desk all day. There is very little work out time involved in what I do so I think if I at least start going to the gym for one hour a day I could do pretty good. I am sure it would help a bit too. I know it is not much but I really think it is at least a start.

2. Meal Prepping- I am awful at just grabbing something quick or trying to make a quick lunch before I head off to work which usually ends up with me over packing sugary unhealthy foods. So today I made a list of meals that I can pre prep at the beginning of the week and not stress about picking something out in the mornings. I am also trying to have more healthy options and get rid of some of the unhealthy things crowding my cabinets and refrigerator.

3. Food Journal
             - I think this is so important for me to do to see if things are really changing or not. I think being able to see what I am putting into my mouth might help me see what and where I need to change things.


4. Weekly Checks-
       Every Sunday I will check to see where I am at with my goal. If I am eating healthier and if there are any issues with my plan. If so then it is time to try something new. I think doing it weekly to begin is important so that I don't get lost in what I am doing. However once I feel more comfortable I will probably move it back to once a month which will help show progress a bit better.


I am excited to get started on this :)

Marriage Equality Thoughts

So this is the big topic of the last week and I guess I feel I should get my thoughts out there now as well ;-). 

I have heard a lot of crazy things since the United states finally allowed gay marriage. Some of them are awful things that I can't even imagine saying to someone. 

I really am glad this this is finally settled. I think it is great that all people can marry who they truly love and that is such an exciting thing for all of us. To be honest I am glad that if my child was to come to me and tell me she loved another women that I know she could actually have a life with her. I am glad that we were able to pass this feat because you never know what your future holds. 

As a kid I always though a man an a women should get married and that was the only way. I really only thought that because I had never seen two men or women with each other at least not in the way I see my mom and dad. Since I was about thirteen I began to see the world a lot different and even I felt the pressures of the world to be someone who I may not be. It was very confusing and I can not imagine being someone who had to come out to this world knowing that there would be a lot of people to beat you down. To a world who wouldn't even want you to marry someone who you loved just because it wasn't the norm. 

I am thankful that my friends who are gay are able to have a marriage with there husband or wife without feeling like they have a bunch of obstacles to climb over. 

Really I think legalizing gay marriage is amazing for our society. I think it is awesome especially  because that is more children who have a chance to be adopted who really need the love and support.  I mean as gay married couples are able to marry many will probably want children and a lot of the time being able to have children is not as easy for some. Okay I may not have the most normal views on all this but it truly is a great thing. 

I am glad that many of my friends have a chance to have a marriage that is legal. I'm so happy that things are becoming more equal, all though there is a lot of change left to go it is one step in the right direction. Sadly not everyone will agree with this decision and we do have to come with terms and realize that we cannot please or change everyone's minds. 

I hope people can at least see that these people getting married to those of the same sex is not offending or hurting anyone. I feel just the opposite because I really do think it is an amazing thing that people can love who they want whether you and me agree on it. 

Your more than welcome to disagree and to think it is a bad thing because that is your opinion and I respect that. However I will not stand for bullying. I hope many others will stand with me and fight bullying over this topic. Over the internet is the worst please don't fight the person judging instead stand with the person being judged and be a friend. Show others that this is not okay. 

I think my mom and probably many of your own used to say "If you can't say anything nice don't say anything at all." If you find your self wanting to say something mean just zip your lips until you find something better to say.  

I'd love to hear your thoughts on the topic! Whatever your opinion is just be respectful to others. 

Best Kinda Sunday

Today hasn't been the best day for this momma but I really am not sure how to write about today just yet.

I am just going to talk about yesterday because it was such a great day! We started our Sunday getting up and getting dressed and packed a lunch and we headed out to go see some Elk and Buffalo at a state park. Honestly the drive was amazing and we had amazing weather. I got to take a lot of pictures which is always one of my favorite things to do. I haven't got to do anything like that in a very long time and Josh came up with it on his own. We have been trying to find things to do that will be cheaper than spending money. :)

It is such a pretty drive to get there. Lots of beautiful scenery and the clouds and sky were amazing shots. With the windows rolled down it was a great day! 

I love this picture she smiled for me! Plus I just got my teeth cleaned and have been doing a teeth whitening product that is absolutely awesome so I was excited to show off my pearly whites which I have always been self conscious about!

Millie Loved the animals and it was so cute when they got closer her eyes got real big like whoa this thing is a lot bigger than me. We did not stay very long because the Elk weren't really coming up to see us like they used to and it was pretty hot. 

 I really love these pictures! I love sail boats I really can't wait to get to the lake sometimes this summer. 

We thought our day was ending there but we ended up going to see a friend of my boyfriends and then back home and we went to the pool with my sister and played outside with Millie. It was a really fantastic day and to end it off was dinner with my Mills. 

Gosh she makes some silly faces doesn't she! She was cheesing like that all afternoon it was great :) 

The end of my night was sitting on the porch swing drinking a glass of wine which I later spilled all over my kitchen floor -_-

Sitting on the porch had me thinking how amazing my life is. I loved sitting out side of the house that I bought and thinking I actually did it. I finally am getting to enjoy the things that I have worked so hard for. No excuses I just did it because I wanted it that badly and I did what it took. I can't wait to share more experiences with my new little family. 

Love You Guys!