May 21st A New Start

Alright so the last couple of weeks haven't been.... at all fun. But I refuse to let that affect the last part of May. I obviously have a lot on my plate but I think I can make it work.

;-)

I AM OFFICIALLY MOVING INTO MY HOUSE THIS WEEKEND!

WOW! I can't believe I can actually say that 0-0 I am so excited to have my own washer and dryer and a big new kitchen. I've also got a huge back yard for my daughter and I am super excited to get to share all these new experiences with her. There are so many cool things about to happen in my life... that's  what I am trying to focus on for the moment. I will be sharing pictures soon of the house but not until I get moved in a bit more.

I have an awesome family, my moms boyfriend who I consider more like a step dad basically remodeled this entire house for me and my daughter. Of course I am buying this house from him but still who's parents would buy them a house, remodel it and then sell it to them at a good price. Yeah, not a lot of parents would ever do that much for their kids.

So anyways!

Things are really starting to look up.

Sometimes I feel like I am drowning and I will never reach air again. However I always get a breath of fresh air exactly when I need it. On occasion I panic because I don't trust that everything will be okay. After some of the most awful things I have ever endured I have made it out just fine and probably a bit stronger than I was prior to the event. I think a lot of the time people are scared that not everything was perfect or normal. I do feel things happen for a reason and we all can come out of a bad situation when we set our minds to it.

I know there are a lot of people out there that struggle with this as well and hope that maybe if we can all realize that life goes on and we grow and learn from mistakes that happen. We learn that we can do anything we set our mind to and no matter how hard it is we just don't give up. Never ever ever give up.

Reason's why I feel like I am drowning in May

1. May 3rd was a disaster per my fathers dramatic behavior/ my sister needing emergency surgery.
2. May 13th - Car accident (not my fault) Back hurts still and having trouble carrying my own baby
3. May 18th - daughter became severely dehydrated and sick and had to watch her cry in pain :( Shes better by the way
4. May 20th- my dad is a completely psycho and can't handle that my family is happy without him.... I know that's sad but he has completely lost every ounce of respect.
5. I got pink eye...like for real may sucks
6. May 18th - Had to move in with my parents till I can move because of a meth user who lived in my duplex...


So yeah.... lets just say May 2015 can hurry up and leave. My family is so over whelmed with the items on my list.

On the bright side:

1. I have an awesome boyfriend
2. I may get to go to a Royals game this Sunday!
3. Most importantly my daughter is healthy and doing a lot better.