Fourth Of July Weekend

This next weekend is going to be so much fun and I can't wait!

I have a hotel for a couple nights down by Branson. This is our first family trip and I am so excited to get to go for once in my life I have a vacation! We are going to drive down Early Friday morning and get to the hotel and get settled then in the afternoon we are taking our lunches to moonshine beach to go swimming with Millie and Josh. I can't wait to get a tan! Okay honestly probably gonna get a burn first but then I shall tan! It will be the first of the year for me to get a tan!

So on the fourth we are heading to my dads family and shooting off fire works with everyone. I have decided to try to rekindle my relationship with my dad because  no matter how stupid he can be sometimes he is my only dad and I will never get this time back. So instead of stressing we got a hotel so that I don't get overwhelmed and I will have my own place to sleep. I think this will really help us.

I haven't been down to see my dad in over nine months so I think this trip may be kinda emotional for me. I know it will be emotional for my dad as well. I am excited to see my family and to put the past behind us. It is just that it is the past and nothing more. I know they probably haven't changed a lot but I just need to keep a level head and remember that I am stronger now and no one can hurt me like they used to.

This trip has a lot of meaning for me. It is the first trip Josh and I are taking together and it is my first family trip. I really never thought I'd get to experience such a thing because as a single mom it is so hard for me to trust guys. I have found one I feel I can trust to actually be my family.

I think it is so funny how Josh and I are. Like the other night we sat down and talked about what irritated us about the other person. I really don't think I've ever had that conversation with a guy before but it was a really great conversation even though I wasn't sure it would go so well. Honestly I got a lot out on the table and I think Josh did to but we ended up in a great mood snuggling and laughing and talking about our future.

That's the thing with Josh and I. We can talk about extremely deep things and things that may hurt the other ones feelings but in the end we make sure we don't ever end the night upset. I love that I can tell Josh whatever is on my mind. I know it bugs him how I wait to say something but its the way that I have learned to make sure I don't hurt anyone's feelings. Its how I figure out what I want to say without sounding like an idiot or being unsure of something. I am glad I found someone who is as much of a dork as I am ;-)

What are your plans for the fourth!?!?

Whatever they are be safe and don't get hurt!