Thursday, February 25, 2016

My Life Changing Moment... What was Yours?

I think we all have those moments in our lives that weirdly begin to shape who we are. Moments that until years down the road we won't even realize how much it really affected us. Well I have one that maybe a few of my friends will remember. It was back in junior high I am guessing my ninth grade year which was a very emotional year for me.

We had a teacher come in, I believe they were an author or a poet. He was teaching us about poetry and we were asked to write a poem which had something to do with nature and ourselves. I wrote mine something about sometimes i felt as small as a butterfly but as fierce as lion. Okay, so I don't remember exactly how the poem went but I remember someone made fun of it. For what ever reason it was they didn't like it and they made it clear. Well I was super sensitive back then and I broke down in tears. I worked so hard on that poem and I thought it was good. It was a time in my life when I didn't feel strong and when I wrote the poem I thought people would see that I was strong.

The author saw me get up set, he came and sat down with me and told me about the poem and how it was good and that I shouldn't feel bad for being sensitive because some of the best writers show their hearts on there sleeves. I was still upset but occasionally through life I remember back to this time and how I was so proud of my work and that one person saw it and assured me that it wasn't bad to have emotions.  It was one of the first times that happen
ed for me, although I was emotional I always thought it was bad and I used to HATE it about myself. Its something I have learned to control but also learned to love about myself.

I can write a story that makes someone cry, I can write a story that makes someone happy. I can write a story that changes someones life for the better. My writing is all because of that one author that made that comment that my emotions were nothing to be ashamed of. It took me years to really see how my emotions made me special, made me who I am.

It makes me sensitive to others feelings, I can read people much easier because I know how to read feelings that others may be going through.

I don't know I feel silly for getting upset now because of the rude comment of a friend because I wish I had the ability to believe in my writing and not let someone else define how I felt about it.

Just a story for you. My moments that secretly helped change  my world.

What is a moment that quietly changed your life? Something small that is almost unnoticeable or something big.

3 comments:

  1. The day i found my laugh again. I dont know if i lost it or never really had it but the day i belly laughed changed something in me.

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  2. The day I realized I was capable of really loving someone and especially capable of being loved right back.

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