How I Feel About Being Single

It is actually quite simple.... I am happy being single. I feel stronger and I feel like I have a life again. I feel like I get to do more things with my daughter and honestly I feel like I got my daughter back. In a relationship I really seemed to struggle with the fact that I had to share my daughter. It would really get me upset because I felt like I was being told I couldn't do anything alone with her. I constantly felt like we both needed to be there cause I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

I love being single because of the zoo! Yes the zoo! I love love love the zoo because its places like the zoo that I get to take my daughter and do anything we want just the two of us. My life might not easy and I may have to push a stroller and hold on to my daughter at the same time but it's a life I will never regret or give up.

I guess in the last several months I got a taste of what it is like to consider someone else's feelings and honestly I do not believe I am ready to deal with that. I really thought I was ready though. I let my hopes of being loved get in the way of what my head was saying. I found myself questioning my every move quite often. I started to see a side of me I didn't know really existed.

Now don't get me wrong being in a relationship is great but I just don't think that I am quiet ready for such a serious relationship as I had.

This relationship wasn't all bad. I really loved him and I thought he loved me. Maybe he does but there is a lot of other things that play into if he does or doesn't. I loved that in the middle of a panic attack I could trust him to be there and make sure I was okay even if I was crying so hard I couldn't breath. There was a lot about him I loved very much and that will never change. However you don't hurt those that you love.

However even though society tells me I need to be in a relationship to be a good mom I have to completely disagree with them. I honestly believe I am a better mom single than in a relationship. so maybe I am not ready for a serious relationship or a relationship at all. I will be someday but for now being just Millie and I is alright with me.

Hope everyone enjoys there Monday! I will have a post up later today about our zoo visit. xoxoxox