Complicated but Not Really

I feel like everything in my life is kinda up in the air right now. My feelings are just all over the place. Trying to decide what I want from this new adventure placed in front of me. Deciding if I want to date or if maybe being single is actually the better option. 

Part of me really wants to date again, but to be cautious. The other part of me kinda gets disgusted when I think about dating so soon after a break up. I don't feel like if I start dating so soon after that I will be doing the right thing for myself or my daughter. 

I am just going to give myself 100% to me and my daughter and take care of us before I start dating again. Get my house organized learn how to correctly mow my lawn (because honestly I had no clue what I was doing!). Get a good schedule down for us and get Cash trained a bit better. Just in general to keep my life organized. 

I am gonna take it one day at a time and maybe in a year or so I will be ready to let someone else into my life. Maybe two years... you know I don't really know how long it will be but I don't plan on actually looking for someone. 

It's so entirely to much for me to handle right now. I just want things to slow down and do my thing for awhile. 

This is the very first time I have actually wanted to be single. I've always wanted to be in a relationship because I thought I could handle it but for the first time I am happy to be single for a bit. So to any single mom's that feel that they need a partner to make it all better let me be your example as to why being single is better than a relationship that you aren't ready for. 

You can do it. You can succeed. You can do it by yourself but always remember your not alone, you have a beautiful child who loves you. Not only that you have many people who know what your going through and are going to be there for you. You are a super mom even if you don't think you are your child thinks that you are. That is all that matters. 

Stick in there momma!