Rant: Baby Daddy's

I've decided to write this because I am tired of my daughters dad blaming me for his problems. Millie's dad hasn't seen her in over six months now. However he got a vacation so he is planning on coming down July 11th.




I will show you the part that gets me. is when he says he was trying to see her during his vacation. Well golly excuse me for thinking my daughter is not a vacation but more of a life style. Gezz. Its ridiculous that he gets to decided when to see his daughter but I have to do it all by myself and I can't just decided when to be a mom. In the last several months a lot of stuff has happened. I got my heart crushed, my sister had emergency surgery, I was in a car accident. Yeah life happens but it did not stop me from being a mother, I guess I have the upper hand since I live with my daughter right?  It was his choice not to move closer to his child, I choose to live close to my family because I knew they would support me more than he would.

Also about the part where he says since he found out he was the dad that I had said i'd bring her to him. Let me explain why this has not happened. Mostly because he has never asked me to or offered to help me get down there. I have a mortgage now and bills and a day care to pay for its hard to just drop everything and go and see him. Here's the deal though, I am the kind of person that will do what ever it takes to make someone happy. I have learned that I can't do that anymore. Sometimes there just isn't anything you can do to make someone happy. He has to decided if he wants to be a dad, I cannot force him to show up or to be around. I can't force him to love his daughter as much as I do and I can't force him to do anything he doesn't want to do. If he wanted to see his daughter he would have done it. He would have made an effort to see her. Instead it took him getting vacation time to see her. I am done taking blame for things that I have not done wrong in being a good mother to my daughter and not exposing her to confusion.

I have to make plenty of decisions where I don't get what I want but I do it because I have a child that I would never want to live with out. We all have choices but if you choose to leave your daughter behind for six months then it starts to make me believe that she is nothing more then a pet you check up every now and then.

 I honestly feel so bad for him because he is missing out on such a beautiful thing, he is missing out on the life of our child. He will never get to experience the last six months that I have. He will never understand what watching someone grow is truly like when it is your own child. Six months is a huge amount of time when your talking about an 18 month old. Its like you blink and shes gone from being that baby that could only crawling an laughing to a little child walking and talking. That is so much time that he will never get to see, I am glad I did not have to miss it because I would have hated myself.

Overall life has been so good. I have met a man who I love with every ounce of my heart. Josh loves Millie. She is learning so much from him too, he is working on teaching her to say I love you. She can say the words just not all together yet. I am so glad Millie will know what its like to have a daddy, one that won't disappear for six months and who will hold her when she hurt. A daddy to make her laugh when she gets her heart broken for the first time in her life. A daddy to protect her and love her more than anything in the world. A daddy who wants her there constantly who wonders what shes doing when shes gone and who will help her get to college and buy her first car. She has that, I am so blessed to have Josh in my life. I am even more blessed that Millie has Josh in her life too.

I just want my daughter to be happy even if that means I don't get my way in all this but Millie is so young that most of what happens for her is decided by me but if she told me she wanted something I would go out of my way to make sure she got it as long as it was safe for her.

Anyways I think I just need to rant because I feel a bit better now that I have.

I'd love to hear your stories as well though! I'd love to read them. :) Hope everyone has a blessed day!