21 WAS PERFECT

For the last two years my birthdays have not gone exactly the best that they could have. For 19 I had just told my parents I was pregnant and lets just say there were a lot of people disappointed in me. It was very hard to know that I disappointed so many people, it made it hard to enjoy that birthday. When I turned 20 I was struggling with depression and for some reason being twenty made me feel old and like I missed on all of my childhood. I did get passed those feelings thankfully and did enjoy the birthday as much as I could.

However this year for my birthday was perfect. I went to sleep with a smile on my face knowing that I for once had one day with no problems, no drama or anything. May not seem like much but that meant so much to me. My parents bought my first bottle of wine for me and I did 4 shots of different types of Vodka and Rums. For someone that doesn't drink that much it was really weird to experience that. I took them one after another. I laughed so hard and was very happy. We then ate food and it made it hard to actually get the food into my mouth ha ha!

It was honestly an amazing night. I had not a worry in the world. My grandma got me a cook book and I am excited to get to find some yummy recipes to make.

I don't know if god is real for if the universe had anything to do with yesterday but if felt like all the stars were aligned and nothing could go wrong. Maybe it was just the alcohol or maybe just the attitude I had but whatever it was I loved the feeling and will remember my 21st birthday for as long as I live as the best birthday I have ever had!

Birthday Part Two:

I am officially closing on my first home today. A few of my family and friends know about this huge step in my life but not everyone. I have been a bit nervous to tell anyone because I was afraid it may fall through. Luckily it has not. I am so excited for this next step in my life. I cannot believe I am 21 and one day old and am going to buy my first house.

There are not many 21 year olds buying a house by themselves. That alone is pretty impressive if I do say so myself. I have had a lot of help getting to this point. Things have never generally been easy for me but that's just like everyone else to. I have been raising my daughter alone up until the last couple of months, paying all my bills and rent and making sure they are paid on time as well. Other then the few here and there help I have gotten from my parents I have done it by myself . I love being able to tell people that I am an independent women  who will never get up and will continue to do my very best to get where I want to be.

Thank you to all who helped me get to this point in my life and for believing in me no matter what. I would have struggled so much without your help.

Thanks for the amazing Birthday! I won't forget this day.