Starting Point

As a single Mama of a little red head one year old I know how much work it can be to work your butt off and almost feel like you never get any recognition for all the work you have to do. Being young and being a mom is quite a bit of work itself because you haven't finished college or done all of the things you thought you were going to get to do. I get a lot of crap from people who believe I should have waited until marriage and that I shouldn't complain or wish I got to do those things. Although I agree that I should have waited because I truly do wish I got a bit more of a child hood. I also think that I couldn't imagine my life any different. I wouldn't be this confident strong women without the experiences that I have had because of my daughter.

I am writing this blog more for myself because I have so many fun experiences that I'd love to share. I also feel a lot of single moms could relate to what I go through everyday. Being a mom in general is about all the fun, the scary, the exciting and the overwhelming emotions that comes along with it.

Let me go ahead and introduce myself to you. :) My name is Jessica I am twenty years old. I work full time as a receptionist at a construction company. I also go to school part time working towards my goal of a degree in accounting. I also raise my one year old Millie pretty much by myself. I have some help from my parents who are the most supportive parents I could ever ask for. My mom and her boyfriend Sam (I call him my step dad) although were not happy I got pregnant so young can't imagine life without Millie. That is all I could ever ask for.

After finding out I was pregnant I really didn't think I'd be doing it alone. I figured Millie's dad would be here 100% because that't the kind of man I thought he was. Of course he didn't truly know he was the dad because we didn't know each other all that well. Because of this Fact Millie's dad decided to ignore the fact that we were in fact having a baby. So about three months into my pregnancy I was not able to get a hold of her dad. He cut off all contact. I began to find anyway to let him know what was going on. I found the site he was on for online dating and Facebook. Shortly after sending my desperate messages the page would go down or I was blocked. After awhile I gave up thinking I was just going to have to wait until after I got a paternity test done.

Three weeks after I had Millie I decided to at least let his parents know that they had a grand baby. After a bit of research and finding who his mom was. I sent my message. She had no clue that Millie was even a possibility. She did however say that Millie did look a lot like her Son. After contacting his mom I finally got a text from Millie's dad. This is all I ever wanted was for Millie to have a relationship with both of her parents.

This was not the life I plan for myself or my children. I grew up in a house hold that had two parents but I never knew what love was until my mom met her boyfriend Sam. I wanted my kids to love both their parents and to see that there was such thing as a perfect life. I had to learn that life is not about finding the perfection that society has taught us is correct but finding the life that makes us most happy. So life was not as I thought it was, but when has it ever gone the way we hoped.
Looking at the pictures beneath I can say that I am one step closer to finding my happiness.

 Millie First Birthday^

 Me and Millie having fun ^

First time I held my daughter ^